Dear Jane

lame and nonsense thoughts

2011-04-11T08:32:00.000-07:00

this is gonna become my diary, a place where I put all my thoughts and feelings just to take them out of me because sometimes writing it down helps me a lot.

first of all, in exactly one month and 2 days I'm graduating! HORROR! panic and fear it's what I feel, I do not want to graduate, I do not want to finish this because that would mean I have to make a lot of decisions I'm scared to take. If I take the wrong ones it will follow me the rest of my life! I am not ready for that, I was not ready at 16, I was not ready at 18 and I'm still not ready at 20 to decide what I want to be in life. 'What is your plan for life?' my mother asked me the other day...I DON'T FUCKING KNOW, OK? I DON'T KNOW, I don't know what I want to be, I don't even know very good who I am, how am I supposed to make this hard decision?aaaaaaaaaaah FUCK

more things on my mind, FRIENDSHIP, beautiful loving unconditional and twisted friendship, I love my friend, I love her, but she's so stubborn, if something doesn't go the way she wants she gets mad, I'm sorry girl, but it is not everything about YOU! 3 years all the rest left and now it's only us I know, I made friends at university and you did too, mine don't live in our town, and yours do so we started hanging out with them, and yes at the beginning they were 'your friends', but after two years I consider them my friends too, you know? and you saying the other day, 'don't you have friends? because we always go out with mine' EXCUSE ME, I just know them for 3 years LIKE YOU!oh god, so I shut my mouth (like always) and started going out with my friends, who live in a city half an hour ago and I sleep at her place, and it's awesome, and then you have the face to tell, hey you sold me out now you are always going with them! what the fuck, girl? I know you are one of my best friends but seriously get your priorities right!!grrr! I just read in the internet, 'I hate the moment when you realise your best friend is an asshole and you hate him' well, it is happening a little bit with you girl, so you better change or you don't see my face so often!

and moooooore friendship, my penpal, the girl I talked about in the last post, no, luckily she hasn't done strike 2, but she is close! Another party, she calls me, but I didn't call her back, I didn't want another disspointment! but I bumped into her anyway, we took pictures together and we talked, but quite distant cold talk. Maybe she is very shy, I don't know, but what I see from my view is that she is awesome through facebook but she doesn't make any effort when I'm around!! I really don't get it!! and now I just feel lazy and careful about her, I mean, lazy like if she is not trying why should I? and careful because I really do not want to lose her, so I'm just backing off, to see if she reacts!! (I'm gonna lose her, if I ever had her) this thought is always on my mind, but now i'm becoming closer with her friend, he is hilarious and he really seems to appreciate when he sees me, so maybe he will bring us together, I don't know! grrrrr penpal, why can't you awesome out of facebook pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

and now other thing that has pissed me off, lately I haven't been very much ONO fan as I used to be, maybe caused by the early dissapointment of the album, but I have listened to it again recently and it is not as bad as I had in mind, so I'm feeling the ONO love again, (healthier this time haha) and GEORGE WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH THIS SLUT? I was angry with the emma watson thing too, but it was a different anger, as deep down I like her very much and they make such a great couple that I am even sad it didn't work out! but this girl?? REALLY? pfff emma watson is so much better babe!! but I love you, and I respect your decision, so go ahead and play, have fun, we'll meet soon

This is a story about me not growing up

2011-03-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

One year ago, I met this girl. I was out partying with my university friend, and she introduced us, and it seems we talked a lot that night, even I don't remember any of it, just because we have pictures. She added me on facebook, and I accepted her to be polite. So now I could see her updates. I remember perfectly how she put up the song Impossible by Shout Out Louds, and I immediately fell for it. As the time passed I discover she had an amazing musical taste, it was a lot like mine. She started liking my videos, then I started to like hers, and then she started commenting. First we only commented about music and short comments. The 'conversations' started to become bigger, and when she found out I was going to Denmark we discover our common love for europe, european guys and of course european unknown bands. While I was in Denmark we started to talk very often, always through facebook of course, but sometimes I talked with her more than with my friends. We have a lot of things in common, we are a lot like each other, so we have a connection. When I came back we decided it was time for us to meet in person, as we only had met once. It is not only part of my imagination she wanting to be friends with me, she even asked my phone number to meet. After a few failed tries, we finally met. But she came with a friend. I don't mind, I think he is awesome and hilarious but, I kind of wanted some time for the two of us alone, to become the real good friends I know we can be. After that, now let's meet again. This friday there was a day-party, and I was going with the friend we have in common, so we arranged to meet there. I really wanted to see her, and talk to her. I was there and SHE called ME, where are you? blah blah blah...she came where I was,not alone with her friend again, and I was with another friend of her so she sat with her, and I talked all the time with her friend, I insist in that he's hilarious but I really wanted to talk to her. When I was talking to him, I was looking at her, like trying to say, hey! I'm here, the girl you've been months talking with in facebook, but she didn't even look at me. Her friend left and she stayed a litlle more, still without looking at me. When she finished talking with her friend I tried to start a conversation with her, even she was sitting a bit far, she just answered shortly, quite distant I think, and then she left and said we'll see each other later! Ok, I thought, it is still soon, we are too sober let's wait a few hours see what happens. I didn't see her again. I called and texted her to see where she was to meet and she didn't answer, I still don't know if she received it. The night came and I went out with my friend. We bumped into her and her friends in a bar, and my friend's boyfriend was there too, so I let them be alone for a while and I stayed with her. The same thing happened, the wall was more interesting than me and I was all the time talking with her friend, because she was very busy with her friends. I mean, ok you are with your friends and want to be with them but I don't go out around there everyday and after insisting so much through facebook that you wanted to party with me now you have me there you just ignore me? I don't understand really...We went to another bar and the situation was the same, so my friend and I just left, and all I could think of her was that she is an idiot. I wanted to send her a message on facebook telling her the truth about how I felt, like she just ignored me, and seriously, what the fuck? but we are not that close yet to tell her I didn't like how you treated me so I didn't know what to do. Finally, I cut out the bad feelings and thoughts, and wrote a funny message like it was kind of fun seeing each other. She answered like everything was normal so I will just forget about it. The thing is she has promised a thursday night out, like a night out together, obviously not just the two of us, but I hope that night we can really talk and become closer. I quite know, we are a lot like each other, she can be one of my best friends if she wants to, but come on girl, put some effort! so I have a lot of doubts now, and this is strike 1. Because I know she worths it. I will allow the strike 2, because seriously I know I would miss her songs, with swedish bands, and the stupid conversations about boys we have. These days I have been really depressed, after-denmark depression, and sometimes just got on facebook and see her comments cheered me a bit up. So I am praying we don't get to strike 3, because I know I would miss her. But if she doesn't try, me neither. I have a little proud, penpal.

Are your thoughts results of static cling?

2011-02-07T11:22:00.000-08:00

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

In 3 months, I'll be graduated, and if I pass everything in 5 I will have finished my degree. Now what? more studying? working? I will be only 21, my whole life is still in my hands...and I don't know what to do with it. No clue. Every time people ask me what I'm going to do I get nervous and I change subject. I don't know what the future holds for me. And I don't want to know. I'm scared. Scared to death. I'm supposed to be a teacher, but I'm not 100% sure. I will get tired of it. Like I get tired of everything.

There are only three things I'm sure of. I love english. I don't want to live in Spain (in a near-future, in 10 years who knows). And I love music. What can I do with that? Nothing. You don't make a career with that. I don't even play any instrument, just love the music with all my heart.

I am so scared. I feel like running away to some place and start a new life where nobody knows me. Nobody judges me. I don't know if it's the depression, the apathy or the fear. Last friday was the perfect day. Perfect day ever. It was a long time since I had that fun here in my hometown, and it was just perfect. Next morning I was happy. Just that one morning. In the afternoon I came back to this melancholic state, where all I do is listen and listen and listen. Passion Pit makes me happy. Kate Nash makes me happy. Lacrosse, The Weepies, Jason Mraz, Regina Spektor and a non-ending list of talented friends.

I hope someone notice the new head of the blog, all couples, sweet and lovely couples, most of them fictional, but still lovely, and they deserve some recognition, because I love them, because I hate them for reminding me how lonely I am...and that if I continue like this I.....

will break down...

Apathy

2011-01-21T08:42:00.000-08:00

Today it's a month since I came back to Spain, a month since I left Denmark...and I...I just don't know how to feel or if I feel anything at all. It's just emptiness inside. The symptoms of depression are there, and the apathy is everywhere. Apathy about everything, apathy about everyone. I don't care about my mum, she just talks and I don't listen, I don't care about my exams, fuck the teachers fuck you dear and beloved classmates!I don't care about my stupid friends and I don't care about YOU...i tried to regret, or either feel hurt, but I just don't feel anything at all...
Last weekend I even forgot it was friday and that i used to go out on fridays...

So trying to get over this apathy here I am, getting this out of me because maybe, just maybe it would make me feel better.

What is making me feel a little more happy lately is music. Music is my boyfriend. And I would totally marry one of these bands, latest discoveries and that I love with all my heart!

and talking about things i would marry and that make me feel better lately, I have another english man on my life who goes directly to number 2 on the list of guys I would marry, George is still #1 but darling you have disapointed me a lot lately, or you get the hell out of the commercial and pop stuff or I will have to marry Andrew instead!

your little soft voice has me captivated!!never let me go is an amazing film, don't you ever lose your accent!

this was never meant to last

2010-12-19T03:23:00.000-08:00

hey!i know i shoulnd't sent you this message, but everything is so confusing right now. i just wanted to talk to you TALK for the last time, too many things were left unsaid, the goodbye wasn't a goodbye to me, i was just so drunk i don't even remember what i said to you...the text you sent me was just hurtful...i know our thing never had a future, every moment we spent together i knew you were coming back to holland, and i was coming back to spain, but saying goodbye this way...i wanted to be mad at you, but what's the point? i will never see you again...EVER you got no idea what it was like your friends talking about you, saying how awesome you are, you are an amazing person and an amazing friend...and i was just there without saying anything because you didn't want them to know about us...saying goobye to everyone you shaked my hand, and gave me 2 kisses like you gave to everyone...am i everyone? am i another spanish girl you met and that you can't even pronounce her name? it just hurt so bad...i didn't mean you to kiss me in front of everyone but at least you could've make a difference...somehow say to me that you care, cared...

and that's the message i should send him, to let him know how i'm feeling right now, but i don't know if have the guts to do it....it's just pointless to feel this way...relationships suck, GUYS SUCK, and saying goodbye it's being harder than ever....

This is not the end, this is not the beginning, just a voice like a riot, rocking every revision but you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm though the words sound steady something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! with fists flying up in the air, like we're holding onto something that's invisible there,'Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear...
Waiting for the end to come, wishing I had strength to stand, this is not what I had planned, it's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light, thoughts were spinning in my head, SO MANY THINGS WERE LEFT UNSAID, it's hard to let you go...
oh, I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to LIE, all I wanna do is trade this life for something new, holding on to what I haven't got...
Sitting in an empty room, trying to forget the past, this was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so...
oh, I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie, all I wanna do is trade this life for something new ,holding on to what I haven't got...
What was left when that fire was gone? I thought it felt right but that right was wrong, all caught up in the eye of the storm and trying to figure out what it's like moving on and i don't even know what kind of things I've said, my mouth kept moving and my mind went dead, so, picking up the pieces, now where to begin? the hardest part of ending is starting again!!
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new, holding on to what i haven't got...
This is not the end. this is not the beginning, just a voice like a riot rocking every revision but you listen to the tone and the violet rhythm though the words sound steady something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! with fists flying up in the air, like we're holding onto something that's invisible there 'Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear...

it's you falling in love with me

2010-12-05T03:27:00.000-08:00

but I don't love him I love YOU
it's you falling in love with him what makes him become me...

It's just so amazing how I in love am with Simon now. From being a weird nerd to become a hot
misterious and cute superhero!Iwan Rheon you are an amazing actor!seriously!

another undignified product of society

2010-11-29T02:03:00.000-08:00

i used to love kate nash a lot, but after listening to this song i don't love her...SHE IS MY FUCKING IDOL, AMAZING KATE AMAZING

i fancy the hip rock 'n roll scene-ster.
i wanna be fucked and then rolled over, 'cause i'm an independant woman of the twentyfirst century;
no time for nits, i want sex and abortuary.
i read glamour, and the guardian.
i like flowers, and i'm hardian.
i take cocaine.
i don't give a fuck about her, i want your name.
i can get fucked like the best of men; like the best of men, like the worst of pain, inflicted on another young girl again;
impressed by another guitar hero; he's a top score and you're a zero
- you're outta your league,
there ain't no rubber on the tracks; it's gravel
you fall hard, cut quick and it's an std; a cut knee
you're a side of stage grasp, a laugh, an after-show party in a bath.
fucked and expected to be fucked, a gasp from an uninformed intruder,
the crowd go wild and things get ruder,
they're already out of hand and there's no one here to take your hand;
it's a cold shower and a scramble for a dirty pair 'o knickers,
don't get yours mixed up with hers.

now get outta bed, get out, get out, get, get outta bed
get up, get down and get undressed 'cause that's what you do best;
strip, strip, strip and shag, fuck get fucked and drag and be impressed by the better sex
take a piece of raw vegetable, and hold it to your breast and say that you stood for nothing.
you were just a whole that lacked passion,
another undignified product of society,
that girl shoulda been a mansion.

i don't have to be your baby [x4]
we can make love [x3]
you can get some [x2]
this is not love.

i am a mansion, i am a mansion,
i won't take none of your shit. [x4]
you can try and have your way, but i have far too much to say
you will be asleep before I'm taking off my shirt [x2]

and i will be a lady [x2]
and i will never let you.

it's such a pity the album version it's not in youtube, but this works too, it makes the song look even more crazy

don't regret

2010-11-27T03:42:00.000-08:00

i'm still a bit overwhelmed about what happened last night...i still cannot believe it, i mean, it was weird, no it wasn't i kind of wanted it to happen but now i feel weird...i don't like him, not at all, he is my friend, and i know he likes me and i like his attention and that's all...i just like the fact that he likes me but i don't like him...so what now? i don't know how to act, i mean, i will act normal but i don't know what he's expecting...i don't want to hurt him because he is my friend but i don't know...i don't know what to think, oh my god!i think i will just assume it, face it, deal with it, what it's done it's done and never regret...

i don't even know if i regret it...a part of me does, another part doesn't, it's like why not? why not? why not......FUCK!

PS: this isn't about the english guy who still pretends he doesn't care about me, this is about how I always screw things upand this picture because no matter how commercial you have become you will always be my husband and i will always love you

2010-11-12T03:42:00.000-08:00

i just don't know how to feel about you anymore...when you were around i started with i pretend i don't have feelings, and that pretending became real. I don't feel anything, I feel nothing when you are around. it's like empty inside me. so i don't know how to feel anymore. what to feel. you are my friend and......that's all?

it's time to face the truth, i will never be with you

2010-11-01T04:21:00.000-07:00

this is really killing me. i miss you so much. from talking and hanging out everyday to completely ignore you. it's been a week and a half since i haven't talk to you, just saw you 2 times and i just ignored you like the wall was more important. i'm not sure anymore if you have noticed, i think you did but..it just hurts. not being around. i miss you so much. i just wonder if you miss me too. the thing is that if you do you would never tell me so...stupid you. i just can't wait to see you again. but then i remember i'm ignoring you. but i want to see you, be around you and ignore just to see if you realize what i'm doing, if you realize i'm putting all my efforts in not go with you and ask about your day...

you don't know but i have started seeing this danish guy, just to try to forget about you, and he is cute and all...and then my friend just asked "do you like him?" ... i couldn't answer that. i was thinking about you. and that just makes me wonder, what if can't like another person anymore? i hate you english guy, i hate your fucking cute accent, i hate your beautiful blue eyes and i hate your...dimple. i will always remember that afternoon when you were looking at me with that look you have, you smiled and said "you have a dimple" "yeah" "just one, like me" and you smiled to me in the cutest way ever...

I understood

2010-10-28T12:59:00.000-07:00

yesterday i finally understood. i understood. after one month trying, trying to make him see me, trying to be there all the time...but he just...doesn't care. All my friends told me, stop it, he doesn't want you, don't go after him please stop it...but i just can't..couldn't. when he's around he's the only thing that matters to me. after nothing happened, after seeing he doesn't care i started to listen to them. i won't talk to him, i won't look at him. and i did yesterday for the first time. the two of us in the same room and i wasn't talking with him. and he noticed. he noticed, and he tried to call my attention i just acted like i didn't care. and then he goes to bed without saying anything, without saying goodbye...although he promised me he would stay. after he left i was just mad. and i spoke to his friend. our friend. and after that conversation i understood. i understood. nothing is going to happen. EVER. in two months i'll be gone and all this will be just memories. and i cried. i cried all over the way home, 15 minutes crying in the street, then i went to bed and cried 'till i fall sleep...after a very dizzy day, i'm crying now again...

just because i realized, i comprehended, i understood...

she won

2010-10-25T13:50:00.000-07:00

estoy llorando como una magdalena!

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like

2010-10-03T11:41:00.000-07:00

I really need this, write something and get it out, or I will just explode. I...don't really know how to start. I liked him before I met him. My friend called me and said, "There is an english boy living with me, he is so handsome and he has an accent. You are going to love him" So I went there to meet him and there he was, perfection. The second he started talking with that sexy english accent I was just crazy. He was a bit shy, and not very talkative but the cutest thing ever. The first 2 weeks we didn't have very much relation, but the third week we started to connect. Every time we were together we talked a lot and it was so fun. And then that night. He took my hand and danced with me all night. So close. So fucking close. His lips next to mine...and he didn't kiss me. I was sad about it but I just forgot. Our friendship kept growing and growing and we had a lot of fun. We danced again. So close. Nothing. We are just friends I repeated to myself, but my heart just doesn't think the same way...After 3 weekends still nothing happened, just friends, so I assumed it and lost the hope of having something more...and then that thursday...we started drinking shots...tequila...and more shots, and now we dance, and more shots and "you are so beautiful" and finally FINALLY he kisses me...and everything is so perfect, we dance we kiss we laugh we talk, a lot, and i love that, he is the cutest thing ever, and "you are amazing my spanish girl" and we go to his place...best night ever.
The next day fairytale ends. When I see him everything normal, like the good friends we were before thursday night. But I am stupid, really stupid, and I got really drunk, REALLY DRUNK, I don't even know where I am, and I make the worst mistake ever...kissing another guy. After that nothing. 5 days of silence, when I see him again he acts normal but...he kind of avoids me. I go on a trip for the weekend so I disconnect I don't see him and I can think. The more I think the more I like him. I come back from the trip, and i see him again and everything seems cool between us he is just treating me the same way as before, we are really good friends, we connect...and then we have the conversation. As everything was going normal I really didn't want the why did you kiss another guy conversation. But we had it. And it was bad. Conclusion: he's pissed, i'm an idiot and for the moment we are just friends. OK. Week goes on and we go out together EVERYDAY and everything is so perfect we still have that connection, he's still my friend...and I...I am falling in love. Yesterday. I was having the best fun with my friends. I was so drunk. And he arrived to the party. And of course I had to talk to him. I should not have. We talk and he says I only want to be your friend, I don't want a relationship right now blah blah blah...LIAR I'M SORRY BUT YOU ARE LIAR maybe I'm just crazy, but I know he feels something for me...I'm not only one of his friends, I am different he knows "you are really into brittish, aren't you" oh god i'm stupid, i never...felt this way about anyone i think, and i'm really worried...am I in love? can you love a person you just know two months ago? what exactly is love? I have never been in love before, never had a boyfriend before, I don't know exactly what I am feeling...it's more than friendship, that's for sure, but love? what it's love?

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight high of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me she fucking hates me and I love it Wait
Where you going I'm leaving you no you ain't, Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great I'm Superman with the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful
I feel so ashamed I snap who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

DAMN YOU ENGLISH BOYS

all i know is that you are so nice

2010-09-08T10:32:00.000-07:00

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you'd always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

and you go to denmark and meet this english guy with his english accent and you realize and you haven't got a chance......and you like him and you keep trying, oh english guy your accent drives me crazy, your smile is the cutest i've ever seen...the way you touched my arm while we were dancing...that look in your face...your mouth so close to my mouth...so fucking close...i wish you would've kiss me...............

Madre mia!

2010-07-12T04:24:00.001-07:00

I DON'T WANT IT

2010-06-26T12:43:00.000-07:00

ya no es por celos, ni por el hecho de que vaya a ser mi futuro marido, sino que ella es una celebrity, lo que significa que el se va a convertir en una y el grupo también...

I'M SAYING I DON'T WANT I'M SAYING I DON'T WANT IT

what bothers me the most...they look so cute together!

http://justjared.buzznet.com/2010/06/26/emma-watson-george-craig-dating/

it's our world, the pictures of gods

2010-06-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

total obsession

I am, I am, I am a zombie

2010-06-19T12:16:00.000-07:00

when it's all over we can barely discuss for one minute only, not with the fortunate only

2010-05-22T14:31:00.000-07:00

I had to do this because my Phoenix obsession is getting out of place!!!

Thomas Mars, I love you and your voice!

god, i miss your style

2010-05-17T14:50:00.001-07:00

She spoke words of wisdom...

2010-05-14T13:20:00.000-07:00

pure love

to the basement people, to the basement

I WANNA BE YOUR DOG

2010-05-09T06:58:00.000-07:00

so messed up

Now I'm ready to close my eyes
and now I'm ready to close my mind
and now I'm ready to feel your hand
and lose my heart on the burning sands

And NOW I wanna be your dog

Si los puntos suspensivos hablasen.........

2010-04-25T13:24:00.000-07:00

Ay! Rubio, rubio lo que has hecho...

love is in the air...

marry me...

2010-04-13T15:07:00.000-07:00

let's make a list of the guys I'd marry...I have to introduce you to a new one!

1. the first one and only it's, of course, George Craig...I don't think I need to talk about he is too much, we all know and if I start I won't stop!

2. the second one I'd marry is mr. campbell a.k.a. jamie campbell bower or as I like to call him the blonde one...we don't need words fot this guy either...(L)

4. the fourth one it'd be...Robert Pattison!!him and his damned movie with its damned final!!I just hate the fact he is surrounded by crazy-13-year-old girls all the time, but it's jusr true, he is one of the sexiest man on this planet!!

and the third??you'd be wondering...because mr.pattinson is in fourth position, who would be the third??well, I don't think you know him, and as I like weird, here it's him!ZACH CONDON DO YOU WANT TO MARRY ME?there isn't for words for him either...just his voice...WHAT A VOICE!!!

This is the video that made feel in love with him...(L)

His amazing tattoo
His band, called Beirut

Sometimes a blow-job is not enough...

2010-04-12T05:28:00.000-07:00

Are you frightened by the weight you possess
Is this life just weight-lessness
The smoggy twilight in LA
I can't think of one right thing to say
and Robbie williams is walking in the canyons
Forgets that we were friends
I guess it all depends on your mood
Why can't these meds be any damn good

(she said )
Why can't you be
Like a waterpik shower massager
A sweet reliable machine
and to tell the truth
that don't feel less alone
Water massager’s the purest love I've ever known

Why can't you be
like when I was 13
Why can't you be
Like an art house foreign movie
Frank and sexy, red balloons and ennui
And allude to me and
Why can't you be
A little more of a mystery
Why can't you be
The part of me that's missing
Instead of leaving me for some other
Say we're perfect for each other
And I know we won't go and spend our lives...alone

Why can't you be
Like an outsourced government contract
I'm a fat cat
Gettin' away with anything
Kicking some secret special powers
Illumination round it showers
'cause it's tearing your hair out
While we can have a bed of flowers
(and I said) why can't you be
like the chicks out of the roost
and girls are happy just to see me
*missing part I can't really get
Sometimes a blow-job's not enough
Why can’t you be
A little less rough

Why can't you be
The part of me that's missing
Instead of leaving me for some other
Say we're perfect for each other
And I know we won't go and spend our lives..alone

Can we...just live it, be
and we could live our lives seperately
could you forget? it happens to you, you and me
and when we're dead, and you'll be dead, we'll have eternity
And I will spend it all, missing you, missing you and me
So while I'm alive I will always be

Why can't you be
A little more deep into me
Like JD Salinger
Why do I challenge her
In all its purpose
Ways that you must prove
Why can't you be
A little more release
Why can't you be
Like a hand rolled cigarette
I’m not choking
This masochistic self-pity of smoking
And this city dew
I keep provoking you to leave me

(She said)
Why can't you be
Like a candle I can snuff
You’re still a diamond in the rough
And I swear to god I've had enough
How can I call your bluff?

the lyrics are from another version I have on my ipod that for some reason it's not on youtube

Today's the day when everything must change

2010-04-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

Kaya loved...the soft fabrics and pastel palette of our clothes. "Everyone usually wants to dress me in black"

She read...scripts. She's up for a role in a Martina Cole TV Drama, The Runaway, a role she wants 'more than any part ever'.

The Hannah Marshall spine-front dress was a big hit with Kaya, she said it made her feel 'grown-up and sexy'
She drank...Diet Coke. 'I live off it. It just tastes better than water'.
She revealed...girls crack on to Elliot, her boyfriend, in front of her, but they both just find it funny.
She brought with her...no-one, though best friend, India, turned up to keep her company near the end of the shoot.

Oh dear, is it really all true?

2010-04-01T10:29:00.000-07:00

no one comes in and yes, you're alone...

You don't miss me, I know
Oh Tennessee, what did you write?
I come together in the middle of the night Oh that's an ending that I can't write,
'cause I've got you to let me down

I want to be forgotten,
and I don't want to be reminded

You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet I just forgot how much I love(d) this song...

you're the only one that knows

2010-03-18T14:04:00.000-07:00

amazing!

One shot, one gun shot and BAM!!

2010-03-11T07:39:00.000-08:00

Don't tell me not to live, just sit and putter
Life's candy and the sun's a ball of butter
Don't bring around a cloud to rain on my parade
Don't tell me not to fly, I simply got to
If someone takes a spill, it's me and not you
Who told you you're allowed to rain on my parade
I'll march my band out, I'll beat my drum
And if I'm fanned out, your turn at bat, sir
At least I didn't fake it, hat, sir
I guess I didn't make it
But whether I'm the rose of sheer perfection
A freckle on the nose of life's complexion
The Cinderella or the shine apple of its eye
I gotta fly once, I gotta try once,
Only can die once, right, sir?
Ooh, life is juicy, juicy and you see,
I gotta have my bite, sir.
Get ready for me love, 'cause I'm a "comer"
I simply gotta march, my heart's a drummer
Don't bring around the cloud to rain on my parade,

I'm gonna live and live NOW!
Get what I want, I know how!
One roll for the whole shebang!
One throw that bell will go clang,
Eye on the target and wham,
One shot, one gun shot and BAM!
Hey, Mr. Arnstein, here I am ...

I'll march my band out, I will beat my drum,
And if I'm fanned out, your turn at bat, sir,
At least I didn't fake it, hat, sir,
I guess I didn't make it
Get ready for me love, 'cause I'm a "comer"
I simply gotta march, my heart's a drummer
Nobody, no, nobody, is gonna rain on my parade!

Putas ganas de seguir el show

2010-02-18T15:21:00.000-08:00

Hasta aquí llego el ritual de enfados y canibalismo estúpido.
Son demasiadas horas en vela y nada que decir.
Descansamos nuestra espalda en las persianas bien cerradas,
tú y yo anémicos y a cada parpadeo calmado intentamos dormir.

Terapias mal llevadas sin nadie que mediara por dos histéricos.
Mis gritos envasados al vacío reventaron al fin.
Y ahora congelo cada instante sabiendo de antemano
que son los últimos la noche que el 99 llegó hasta abril.
Ya no hay ganas de seguir el show, ni de continuar fingiendo,
sólo quiero ser espectador, relax, entertainment.
Me pregunto quién pensó el guión,
debe estar bastante enfermo.
Fue el estreno de un gran director,
le caerán mil premios...

...Y al subir al taxi mis palabras son vapor de cristal.
Y me dejo el alma cuando escribo en la ventana
"que sea cierto el jamás"
¡Oh, cállate!

Y ahora relájate, ella lo lleva bien,
está aliviada, ¿ves?.
Todo ha acabado bien.
Te dice "fíjate, mira mis manos, ¿ves?
no pesan nada, ¿ves? están flotando ¿ves?"
Putas ganas de seguir el show y de continuar mintiendo
y en un travelling algo veloz sale un "fin" en negro.
Me pregunto quién pensó el guión, debe estar bastante enfermo.
Fue el estreno de un gran director, le caerán mil premios.

Y a medias del viaje, callo a gritos que no quieras bajar.
Y pierdo la conciencia cuando escucho como dices
"que sea cierto el jamás"
¡Oh, MUÉRETE!

Any fun

2010-02-12T06:23:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I found one of the most beautiful music videos I've ever seen. Everything in it it's like so inspiring, really love it. Love it so much that I had to take captures of it. I wanted to take two or three and I ended up taking more than ten!

Chloë Sevigny looks so so beautiful in this video!!I LOVE her hair, it's so messy, it reminds me of mine...

Love the girl with the sunglasses and the cigarette, she's like the coolest girl I've ever seen... Jason Schwartzman is not only an actor, he writes, sings and plays all intruments in Coconut Records. He is a genius!

I fell in love with this capture of the back of Chloë, don't know why but I love it!

Now you wanna watch the video, right? Enjoy!

we were special...

2010-02-08T13:32:00.000-08:00

I don't believe it...
I'm sorry!I'm so sorry!!
You ruined it.
You don't want anyone to care.
I could be dead in a second.
Everything is...so...fragile. Don't you realize that? We were special...
I was scared
You're always scared.

Emily!Emily!!!

TOTALLY MAD

2010-01-31T08:31:00.001-08:00

Oh, I wish I had a boyfriend
I wish I had a loving man in my life
I wish I had a father
Maybe then I would've turned out right

But now I'm just crazy, I'm TOTALLY MAD
Yeah I'm just crazy, I'm fucked in the head And maybe if I really tried with all of my heart
Then I could make a brand new start in love with you

Oh, I wish I had a suntan
Oh, I wish I had a pizza and a bottle of wine

Oh, I wish I had a beach house
Then we could make a big fire every night
Instead I'm just crazy, I'm TOTALLY MAD
Yeah I'm just crazy, I'm fucked in the head
And maybe if I really tried with all of my heart
Then I could make a brand new start in love with you

Pictures: Krystal Simpson

oh boy, you've left me speechless

2010-01-28T06:37:00.000-08:00

I can't believe what you said to me, last night, we were alone
You threw your hands up, Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me with your James Dean glossy eyes

In your tight jeans with your long hair and your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke? And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

lady GaGa - speechless

lo mas rock&roll de por aqui

2010-01-25T11:42:00.000-08:00

En 2008 fue Cory Kennedy, en 2009 Tallulah Morton...para 2010 ya tenemos chica: Atlanta de Cadenet

Quiero esa diadema rosa, quiero esa diadema rosa...

Definitivamente me tengo que comprar las medias de corazones...

Yo quiero un tatuaje como ese meencantameencantameencantameencataaaaaa

Primero que veo en esta foto: color de uñas, igual que el mio...:)

say it now 'cause when I'm gone you'll be callin' but I won't be at the phone

2010-01-20T13:49:00.000-08:00

me encanta esta última foto, tengo yo una con la misma mueca!

Should I stay? should I go? I can't make up my mind anymoooooooore

2010-01-09T10:04:00.000-08:00

No hay palabras...

Capaz o incapaz?

2009-12-28T16:07:00.001-08:00

Hacia mucho MUCHO que no veia una peli y me enamoraba de ella, y digo enamorarme de tener ganas de verla 50 veces seguidas hasta aprenderme los dialogos

Felicidad en estado puro, brutal, natural, volcánico, que gozada, era lo mejor del mundo... Mejor que la droga, mejor que la heroína, mejor que el costo, la coca, chutes, porros, hachís, rallas, petas, hierba, marihuana, cannabis, canutos, anfetas, tripis, ácidos, lsd ,éxtasis...
Mejor que el sexo, que una felación, que un 69, una orgía, una paja, el sexo tántrico, el kamasutra, las bolas chinas... Mejor que la nocilla y los batidos de plátano...
Mejor que la trilogía de George Lucas, que la serie completa de los Teleñecos, que el fin del Milenio... Mejor que los andares de Ally Mcbeal, Marilyn, la Pitufina, Lara Croft, Naomi Campbell y que el lunar de Cindy Crawford... Mejor que el pequeño paso de Amstrong sobre la Luna, el Space Mountain, Papa Noel, la fortuna de Bill Gates, los tratos del Dalai Lama, las malas experiencias cercanas a la muerte, la resurrección de Lázaro, todos los chutes de testosterona de Schwarzenegger, el colágeno de los labios de Pamela Anderson, mejor que los excesos de Morrinson... Mejor que la libertad... Mejor que la vida

Just because it's Christmas...

2009-12-20T09:45:00.001-08:00

B I T C H

2009-11-25T11:48:00.000-08:00

B I T C H in disguise!

Do you remember the lives we stole from songs?

2009-11-17T08:45:00.000-08:00

Really abandoned this. I don't really know why, but the thing is that I don't have really much time so my latest uploads are of music because it's so easy I put the video and the lyrics, even sometimes just the video...and I like it but I feel that I should do more with, don't you think? Actually I don't even who I'm talking to because it seems that Mara is the only one who writes!(I really appreciate)
So today I'm gonna make a super post with everything that comes to my mind, and as I'm with my sister's computer (mine is crap, in christmas I'll have a new one :D) I don't really have many pictures here and it's not gonna be the same, but anyway...

First reason I made myself a blog was because I used to read (I still do but not so often) lots of fashion blogs and I didn't know where to keep the sites, so if I had my own I could read them all. Another reason was that I have a lots of things in my mind and I needed a place to put them. Last year I was more into fashion, this one it's like I'm more into music. My last discovery is an english band called "The Answering Machine". They are so good, they have their own style and I really love their music!My favourite song of them it's emergency, you can listen to it, it's the first one of my playlist!:)I like so muck too Oklahoma because everytime I listen to it I feel like dancing, and the infomation because it's totally the kind of song I love, here you have it:

and I know, you're so awkward on the phone,
please don't speak so loud
why won't you come home?
so just stay out all night...again

love it!

Now let's talk about other things I like...TV Shows!What would I do without them? Actually right now I'm just watching Gossip and How I met your mother weekly because like I said I don't have time, but I have to end watching Greek, True Blood and Entourage. And oh! Yesterday El internado started so another one to the list! Skins starts in january, I'm really dying for it, I used to like more Gossip but this third season is not being so good, so I'n really dying for skins (specially for effy). Jamie Brittain(wirter of skins) said effy was his favourite character of skins 4 so please I need to watch it noow!well I still have to wait 3 months, but we have the previews!!(for the moment just one) and I didn't like at all because effy doesn't appear!!Just one scenee!
http://www.e4.com/video/bsT92GRq7Lu6v6G5QKRjl1/play.e4

And a thing I've never talked about here!Books!Believe it or not I read, not too much, I have to say but I read. My favourite book is La sombra del viento, the book is so perfect, the story, the characters...love it!Read it like five times!

The last book I read it's called "La soledad de los numeros primos" and I think it was super sad. And weird. The characters are so special and they have a special connection that (I think) they don't use. The boy and the girl they both had 'an accident' in their childhood that touch them forever. Sorry but I'm gonna tell you his 'accident' because it's so...can't describe it.

He had a twin sister. He was super intelligent and was kind of superdotated, but her sister wasn't. Actually she had lots of problems and couldn't even speak. When they were in school, everyone laugh of her because she wasn't like the other kids (she was retarded), and they laugh of him too for being her brother. Her twin brother. He was so embarrased of her. One day a kid invited them to a birthday party, and he didn't want her to go, but the mother insisted. On the way they passed a park, and as they were alone he decided to left her there during the party, and then he'll be back. He went to the party without her, letting her alone in the park, and 3 hours later when he came back she wasn't there. She never appeared again. There was a small river in the park and she liked water. Or maybe somebody kidnapped her and she was still alive...nobody knows but she never appeared.

It's so sad, don't you think?Sorry that I tell but when I read it, it was so shocking! I recomend the book, even there's not too much action, it's special...
The girl, Alice is a very strange character too, and she never eats, which reminds me a lot of cassie!!

And now if you read 'till here I'll give you a present!!

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Moon river what'd you do to be

2009-11-01T11:11:00.000-08:00

Dustland fairytale beginin
Just another white trash
County kiss
Sixty one
Long brown hair and foolish eyes
Look just like you gone into some
Kind of slick chrome american prince
A blue jean serenade
Moon river what'd you do to be
But i don't believe you

Some cinderella in a party dress but
She was looking for a night gown
I saw the devil warping up his hands
Hes getting ready for the show down
I saw the minute that i turn away
I got my money on a pond tonight

Change came in disguised of revelation
Set his soul on fire
She said she'd always knew he'd come around
And the decades disappear like sinking
Ships we persevere god gives us hope
But we still fear
We don't know
The mind is poison castle in the sky
Sit stranded vandalized
The draw bridge is closing

Some cinderella in a party dress but
She was looking for a night gown
I saw the devil warping up his hands
Hes getting ready for the show down
I saw the ending were they turned the page
I threw my money and i ran away
Strait to the vally of the great divide

And were the dreams roll high
And were the wind dont blow
Out here the good girls die
And the sky wont snow
Out here the bird don't sing
Out here the field don't grow
Out here the bell don't ring
Out here the bell don't ring
Out here the good girls die

Now cinderella don't you go to sleep
Its such a bitter form of refuge
Ahh don't you know the kingdoms under siege
And everybody needs you
Is there still magic in the midnight sun
Or did you leave it back in sixty-one
In the of the cadence in the young mans eyes
And were the dreams roll high

Yes mate

2009-10-09T13:07:00.000-07:00

My current love is Jamie Campbell Bower. Since I saw him on the news because of the New Moon premiere (they didn't show the movie just trailers) I fell for him. Surfing the Internet I fell even more in love and when I discovered he had a band (The Darling Buds) was totally determinate.

The first time I saw him was in Sweeney Todd, and I just thought what a hot guy, but I didn't know that he was such a famous actor!

But I didn't know everything about him, or I didn't realized I already knew him!Found his twitter and what? I've already been here. Oh-my-God! He's one of George's best mates!Why I just realized one year later he was friend of him!!They are a lot like each other, you see that just for reading their tweets, and now I understand why I like him so much!

Pictures with George from the last Isle of Wight

Isn't he the cutest?

Life is short

2009-10-05T13:32:00.000-07:00

Totally in love with this video!!

found at gala's

what katie did

2009-09-29T15:09:00.000-07:00

Oh what you gonna do, Katie?
You're a sweet sweet girl
But it's a cruel, cruel world
a cruel, cruel world

My pins are none too strong, Katie
Hurry up, Mrs Brown
I can feel it coming down
& it won't take none too long

But since you said goodbye
Polka dots fill my eyes
And I don't know why

What you gonna do Katie?
You're a sweet, sweet girl
But it's a cruel, cruel world
a cruel, cruel world

Safety pins are none too strong Katie
they hold my life together
And I never say never
And I never say never again

But since you said goodbye
The polka dots fill my eyes
And I don't know why

Since you said goodbye
the polka dots fill my eyes
And I don't know why
Say you want
Say you will
Say you won't but don't leave me standing
Say you will, it's up to anyone
That's what they all like to know

And since you said goodbye
the polka dots fill the sky
And I don't know why

Not my imagination

2009-09-24T07:49:00.001-07:00

George Craig is rumoured to be Mario Testino's new favourite, and was out in London last night on the eve of his catwalk debut with Burberry

http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/showbiz/article-23747493-mario-testino-favourite-george-craig-celebrates-burberry-catwalk-debut.do;jsessionid=9176458E4EF69AB47057FE318A09C66B

I'm the happiest girl in this world!

Cigarettes

2009-09-22T14:06:00.000-07:00

tell me what it is, it isn’t fair but
I’m wasting time, 'cause it isn’t my heart, it isn’t my fault
and every situation understands, well
the anecdote of chasing the locations to your doors
’cause I’m wasting time, I’m wasting money again
and all the cigarettes that I have never smoked
and all the letters that I have never sent

he was sitting by the swimming pool
but he was scared,
’cause it wasn’t his time and it wasn’t his chance
getting older’s not been on my plans but
it’s never late, it’s never late enough for me to stay
’cause I’m wasting time, I’m wasting money again
and all the cigarettes that I have never smoked
and all the letters that I have never sent

Guess who's back?!

2009-09-17T09:29:00.000-07:00

Total y perdidamente enamorada de la nueva Serena

Who the hell is he not to want you?

Effy-Love

2009-09-06T14:19:00.000-07:00

And all the girls go

2009-08-31T07:04:00.000-07:00

Vuelvo de vacaciones y me encuentro con este precioso video dirigido nada menos que por Cass Bird.

Ya habia oido hablar de esta chica pero ahora cada vez me esta gustando más.

The next pictures by Cass Bird too!

Sigilosa al pasar

2009-07-28T04:31:00.000-07:00

Ayer fui la mujer más feliz del mundo cuando me meti en el blog de
Alice y vi que llevaba este vestido. ¡El mismo vestido que me compre yo antes de irme de vacaciones!

¿Es precioso verdad? Subiría alguna foto pero no tengo cámara porque murió el otro día, asi que a ver si después de vacaciones lo hago.

A otra cosa, el otro día fue el cumple de mi querida Taylor, si no me equivoco, y yo como ando de aqui para alla que no paro ¡pues no me entere! Pero Tay que sepas que me acuerdo de ti.

Llevo conmigo un radar especial para localizar solteros
Si acaso me meto en aprietos tambien llevo el número de los bomberos
ni tipos muy lindos ni divos ni niños ricos yo se lo que quiero
pasarla muy bien y portarme muy mal en los brazos de algún caballero

deja que se coma el barrio antes de ire a dormir

Him

2009-07-08T15:13:00.000-07:00

Hace ya 10 meses que te conoci a través de youtube. 10 meses. Casi un año. Al principio no me quería bajar todas las canciones porque no me quería obsesionar demasiado. Pero pudiste(is) conmigo. Hasta tengo vuestro disco, y eso significa mucho porque yo no compro cualquier disco y mucho menos me cojo un bus hasta las afueras de la ciudad para ello. Pero valió la pena. Porque me hacéis feliz. Podría decir que ahora sois mi vida pero sería mentira, porque obviamente un grupo de música no lo es todo en esta vida. Pero la hacéis mejor. Cuando escucho vuestras canciones se me dibuja una sonrisa en la cara. Cuando veo fotos nuevas, videos nuevos...canciones nuevas se me ponen los pelos de punta... Eso tiene que significar algo. Y aún no veo la hora de conoceros. La hora de teneros a unos pocos de metros de mi y cantar todas y cada una de las canciones como si me fuera la vida en ello. Puede que eso nunca suceda, pero yo aun tengo la esperanza.

¿Y a que viene ahora esto? Pues que el sabado es tu cumpleaños baby. Y yo idiota de mi no me di cuenta que caia en un sabado de julio y que no iba estar en casa para poder hacer una dedicatoria decente. Por eso me adelanto. Mañana marcho y hasta el domingo no volvere a conectarme a internet por lo que hay dedicarte esto ahora.

Hace 19 años el 11 de julio de 1990 nacía un niño al que pusieron de nombre George. Su talento para la música ya se veía y comenzó tocando la batería, para luego pasarse a la guitarra. Con tan sólo 12 años se unió a su primera banda, aún sin nombre. En un principio sólo necesitaban un cantante, pero él quiso también tocar la guitarra. En uno de sus primeros conciertos en su pueblo les preguntaron por el nombre de la banda, y al no tener uno fijo aun dijeron One Night Only, debido a que solo iban a tocar esa noche, pero quedo el nombre hasta ahora. Con 17 años ya sacaba su primer disco, que aunque no fue un éxito arrollador, tiene bastante presencia en el reino unido. Mientras trabaja en el segundo disco, Christopher Bailey, director creativo de la marca Burberry, le encontró por Myspace y le encantó su estilo. En seguida le convirtió en su nueva musa, y no sólo aparece en las campañas publicitarias sino que también ha desfilado en Milán dos veces.

Pero todo esto que he contado no me importa. Quiero decir, yo no estoy encadilada (por no haber otra palabra para explicarlo) con él por que sea modelo, o por que sea el cantante de un grupo, sino por su personalidad y por las canciones. Casi todas las canciones del disco las escribió él. Y los b-sides. Y las que no habremos oido pero que fijo que también serán geniales. También por lo mucho que quiere a su familia, y el rollo que tiene con sus amigos. Su actitud ante la fama, y en las entrevistas. Por ser él mismo sin que le importe lo que le digan los demás. Y por reírse como un niño pequeño. Por muchas cosas que ahora no se me ocurren, pero no podría enumerarlas todas...Por ser tu y siempre. Happy birthday George!

I make them good girls go BAD

2009-06-30T11:57:00.000-07:00

A mi que no me gustaba nada Leighton de rubia, ahora veo este video y si me gusta!!

But just one night couldn't be so wrong
you make wanna lose control

I love this couple!(L)

Como dice mi mala influencia: la idolatramos demasiado

mad world

2009-06-25T15:18:00.000-07:00

All around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
bright and early for the daily races
going no where, going no where

their tears are filling up their glasses
no expression, no expression
hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
no tomorrow, no tomorrow

and I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
when people run in circles it's a very very
mad world, mad world

children waiting for the day they feel good
happy birthday, happy birthday
and I feel the way that every child should
sit and listen, sit and listen

went to school and I was very nervous
no one knew me, no one new me
hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
look right through me, look right through me

and I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
the dreams in which I'm dying are the best i've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
when people run in circles its a very very
mad world, mad world
enlarging your world , mad world

I totally fall in love with this picture...

necesito que sea 3 d julio YA!

Son tiempos difíciles para los soñadores

2009-06-21T15:26:00.000-07:00

Si Amélie prefería vivir en sus sueños y seguir siendo una chica introvertida, estaba en su derecho, ya que malograr su vida es para todo ser humano un derecho inalienable...

La vida no es mas que un interminable ensayo de una obra que jamás se estrenará

Sin ti, las emociones de hoy no serían más que la piel muerta de las de ayer

La angustia por el paso del tiempo nos hace hablar del tiempo que hace

Usted tampoco podría ser una alcachofa, por que incluso las alcachofas tienen corazón

El 31 de agosto a las 4 de la mañana, Amélie tuvo una idea luminosa. Esté donde esté, encontrará al dueño de la cajita y le devolverá su tesoro. Si él se conmueve, está decidido. Dedicará su vida a ayudar a los demás. Y si no, pues nada.

- Pero...¿qué quiere de mí?
- Dinero...te va a pedir una recompensa de varios miles de dolares...No, idiota!! Está enamorada
- Pero si no la conozco...
- Claro que la conoces, desde siempre...en tus sueños

- Tras todos estos años el único personaje que me cuesta capturar es la chica con el vaso de agua. Está en el centro, y sin embargo está fuera.
- Quizá sea distinta a los demás.
- ¿En qué?
- No lo sé. Tal vez cuando era pequeña no jugaba con los otros niños. Quizá nunca.

- La chica del vaso de agua. Si parece ajena quizá sea porque piensa en alguien.
- ¿Alguien del cuadro?
- No, en un chico que ha visto por ahí. Pero le parece que tiene algo en común con él.
- Dicho de otra forma, prefiere imaginar una relación con alguien ausente que crear lazos con los presentes.
- No, quizá se desvive por solucionar la vida de los demás.
- ¿Pero y ella? ¿Y los problema de su vida? ¿Quién los solucionará?
- En mi opinión es mejor dedicarse a los demás que a un gnomo de jardin

hey, BEAUTIFUL

2009-06-16T09:17:00.000-07:00

Desde hace tiempo se formó la idea en mi cabeza de hacerme un tatuaje. La idea poco a poco fue tomando consistencia, y decidí que sería uno pequeño en la mano izquierda justo debajo del pulgar. Pero la pregunta era el qué. Había pensado unos puntos, un dado o estrellas...finalmente me decante por las estrellas. 3 concretamente. Y con esa idea en mi mente iba yo el otro día por la calle cuando veo este cartel de Sienna Miller para Hugo Boss:

¿Ven su hombro derecho? Sí, hay 3 estrellas. Pues me enamore de ellas, he buscado fotos para verlas mejor y cada vez tengo más claro que van a ser así.

Y ahora la pregunta es cuando me lo hago. En negro por supuesto que las de Sienna son azules. Ahora que estoy en exámenes no, sería antes o después de irme por ahí en julio. Si mi madre se entera me mata. Por eso dudo aún más si hacermelo o no. Pero soy mayor de edad y si me apetece hacerme un tatuaje me lo hago. Si lo hago justo antes de irme estaría bien porque tampoco es que vaya a estar mucho tiempo con mi madre, pero si me pilla es capaz de dejarme sin verano...NO SÉ

Me apetece hacer una locura, algo que nadie espere y que luego no me arrepienta... Cortarme el pelo (después de más de un año sin cortarlo) por una parte me apetece pero por otra luego me arrepentiré... Porque aunque me encante el pelo largo, como dijo Gala ahora le dio a todo el mundo por llevarlo, y hay que ser original no?

Your hair was long when we first met

2009-06-09T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hace tiempo lei un libro llamado Verano en Vaqueros (original es The Sisterhood of the travelling pants) y más tarde su correspondiente segunda y tercera parte. El libro en sí tampoco es que sea una maravilla, podría decirse que está bien. Pero lo que más me gustaba de ellos no era la historia en sí, sino que entre cada capítulo había una frase. Una frase de alguien famoso, de algún personaje o de gente que la autora conocía(que sé yo!), algunas sin sentido, otras totalmente verdades, pero la mayoría de ellas me encantaban, de hecho algunas están aún en mi memoria, por lo que decidí guardalas todas en el ordenador. Y hoy no se por qué me acordé, y pensé qe estaría muy bien subirlas aquí, no todas que son muchas, pero las que más me gustan :D (mis favoritas van en negrita)

- No todos los que deambulan están perdidos
J.R.R.Tolkien

- Hoy es el mañana que nos preocupaba ayer
Anónimo

- ¿Puedes obligarte a querer? ¿Puedes obligar a otros a quererte?
Lena Kaligaris (personaje del libro)

- Regla nº1: el cliente siempre tiene la razón
Regla nº2: si el cliente no tiene la razón, por favor, consulte la regla nº1
Duncan Howe(personaje del libro)

- Cuando la vida te ofrezca una birria, di: “Si, claro, me gusta, ¿qué más tienes?”
Henry Rollins

- Si sientes que tienes el control es que no vas lo bastante rápido
Mario Andretti

- El problema no es el problema. El problema es tu actitud ante el problema. ¿Entendido? Entrenador Brevin (personaje del libro)

- Si no lo encuentra en el índice, búsquelo detenidamente en todo el catálogo
Catálogo de Sears Roebuck (libro)

- Antes de criticar a alguien deberías ponerte en su lugar y andar un kilómetro con sus zapatos. Así, cuando los critiques, estarás a un kilómetro de ellos y tienes sus zapatos.
Frieda Norris

- El tiempo dice la verdad
Galleta china de la suerte

- De las 36 formas de evitar el desastre, salir corriendo siempre es la mejor
Anónimo

- La vida es tan...así
Kelly Marquette alias Skeletor (personaje del libro)

- Pide un deseo para conseguir lo que quieres. Trabaja para conseguir lo que necesites
Abuela de Carmen (personaje del libro)

- Iremos. A ningún sitio que conocemos. No hace falta que digamos nada
Beck

- No hay como regresar a un sitio que permanece igual para descubrir lo que uno mismo ha cambiado
Nelson Mandela

- He pasado una noche absolutamente maravillosa, pero no ha sido ésta
Groucho Marx

- Tienes dedos diferentes en la otra mano
Jack Handey

- El tiempo es lo que impide que todas las cosas ocurran a la vez
Graffiti

- A veces necesitas desordenarlo todo
Loretta, la asistenta de los Rollings

- Un día alguien te hará una pregunta a la que tendrás que decir que si
Old 97’s

- Las probabilidades de que te alcance un rayo aumentan si te pones debajo d un árbol, sacudes el puño hacia arriba y dices: ¡Las tormentas son idiotas!

Johnny Carson

-Hay muchas cosas que tiraríamos si no temiéramos que otros fueran a recogerlas
Oscar Wilde

- Por aerodinámica, el abejorro no debería de poder volar. Pero el abejorro no lo sabe y por eso sigue volando
Mary Kay Ash

- ¿Te pago una copa o quieres que solo te dé la pasta?
Ligón fracasado

- Muéstrame una chica con los pies bien plantados en el suelo y te mostraré una chica que no puede ponerse los pantalones
Annik Marchand

- No me hagas preguntas justo ahora. Estoy de mal humor y lo más seguro es que me burle de ti
Effie Kaligaris (personaje del libro)

- Existía una ley de vida muy cruel y muy justa: debías crecer o, de lo contrario, pagar más para seguir igual
Norman Mailer

- El llamado "teléfono" tiene demasiadas carencias para ser considerado seriamente un medio de comunicación. Este aparato, de forma inherente, no tiene ningún valor para nosotros
Informe interno de 1876 de Western Union

- He intentado a mi manera ser libre
Leonard Cohen

Y mi favorita, que realmente me marcó desde el primer momento en que la leí:

- Lo que haces habla tan alto, que no puedo oír lo que dices

*Pictures of amazing Kaya's last photoshoot

This is a hurricane

2009-06-03T12:48:00.000-07:00

Desde el otro día que quería volver a actualizar esto pero con la uni estoy muuy agobiada!mañana tengo que entregar un trabajo de plástica (si, tengo plástica, lo que tiene ser una estudiante de magisterio)y aún no empecé. Pero bueeeno, aprobé el parcial de psico y el oral de inglés creo que fue bien, así que no empezamos tan mal, no?

I have a shoot for esquire, so that means new pictures like these?yees please!

I got a better plan

2009-05-27T14:01:00.001-07:00

Sigo fascinada con esta sesion de fotos...AMAZING

from taghrid

Maybe I listened to this today like...50 times!

.

2009-05-24T12:55:00.000-07:00

Te haré una promesa. Te garantizo que no volverás a verme. No regresaré ni volveré a hacerte pasar por todo esto. Podrás retomar tu vida sin que yo interfiera para nada. Será como si nunca hubiese existido.

I want love, but its impossible

2009-05-21T07:08:00.000-07:00

Someone really important to me said that quote (well, wrote that quote) the other day and it's still stuck in my head...

and I'm feeling happy today, just received the mark from my psicology report and it's very high, higher than I expected so it made my day!:D

This picture is so hot, isn't it?

Just read there's gonna be a film, a book and an american version of skins!!what is that? I mean, I'm soo happy, but is it necessary??

Gossip Girl already ended!!for the last episode I was expecting soo much more, but it was so good anyway. Serena&Carter's part really shocked me!and little-J dissapointed me again...you were soo good in the second season why do you have to go back to who you were before?and chuck&blair...no words for them, just watch the video!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNOWILM7C34

Every minute of the day

2009-05-17T09:54:00.000-07:00

The Sounds are releasing new album, and I just found out yesterday!

(the song it's too on the playlist of the right)

can't wait for the next songs!

and my favourite song of them!(L)

P.S. por si no se dieron cuenta, cambie cosas del blog, el header no creo q dure mucho, ya stoy buscando otra imagen espero q entiendan por que!

It's all happening

2009-05-15T14:06:00.000-07:00

One day you'll be cool. Look under your bed, it'll set you free

We are not Groupies. Groupies sleep with rockstars because they want to be near someone famous. We are here because of the music, We are Band Aids. We don’t have intercourse with these guys, we inspire the music, we are here because of the music

I always tell the girls, never take it seriously, you never get hurt. Never get hurt, you can always have fun. And if you ever get lonely, you just go to the record store and visit all your friends

Act One, in which she pretends she doesn't care about him
Act Two, in which he pretends he doesn't care about her, but he goes right for her
Act Three, in which it all plays out the way she planned it. She'll eat him alive
We gotta stop them!
Stop them? You...were her excuse for coming here

I'm a golden god

Don't you have any regular friends?
Famous people are just more interesting

It's all happening

I have to go home
You are home

You're too sweet for rock and roll

"That groupie"? She was a Band-Aid! All she did was love your band. And you used her, all of you! You used her and threw her away! She almost died last night while you were with Bob Dylan. You guys, you're always talking about the fans, the fans, the fans; she was your biggest fan, and you threw her away! And if you can't see that, that's your biggest problem

I'm never as good as when you're there

They don't even know what it is to be a fan. You know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band so much...that it hurts

TAYLOR

2009-05-07T13:10:00.000-07:00

Her name is Taylor... she is not Little-J anymore!

and now I really fuckin' love you!

Creepy

2009-05-06T13:23:00.000-07:00

no inspiration...

You never alter, you’re always you
Everything’s breaking, but I don’t care
Smash the rest up, burn it down
Put us in the corner 'cause we’re into ideas

Take these edges, they’re inside out
No one will notice, they’re looking elsewhere
We can’t be honest, we call it off
We got the choice if it all goes wrong

when nothing makes you feel good...
then nothing makes you feel good

The best piece of ass in this whole damn city!

2009-04-30T14:12:00.000-07:00

no se si alguna vez lo habeis visto, seguro que si, pero no me canso de verlo, y creo q es uno de los mejores videos de youtube!

Wanting to live and laugh all the time

2009-04-26T13:48:00.000-07:00

she has amazing legs, huh?

me encanta como se le marcan los pomulos...

listen

Hide and seek

2009-04-23T14:11:00.000-07:00

estoy en el portatil y tengo todas las fotos en el otro ordenador, asique no puedo actualizar como tenia pensado. Pero me apetecia actualizar de todas formas, asique dejo esta cancion que me apasiona y que en cuanto la escucho tengo que escucharla varias veces seguidas.

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet,
sinking... feeling...
Spin me round again and rub my eyes
This can't be happening
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines
All those years they were here first

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life

Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines (Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears,
They were here first.

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? because it is
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth (hide and seek)
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you (hide and seek)
You don't care a bit, you don't care a...

you don't care a bit
no, no, you don't care a bit
no, no, you don't care a bit
no, no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit, you don't care a bit...

Don't you know? Oh, it's a funny thing, you know

2009-04-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I feel inspired, and I write things. Stupid things, stories that appear in my mind. Some of them don't have any sense, and others do. Nobody's gonna read this, but I don't care, because I just felt this had too many photos, no texts so...

She was a girl, a 'normal' girl. That's what everybody say, but we're not normal. That's what we pretend to be. She was so scared that people find out how she really was that she lived her whole life pretending be someone she really wasn't. She always did what the other people wanted her to do, and she was what other people wanted her to be. She studied a career (she hated to study), she stayed to live in the city she was born (she wanted to see the world and live in different countries), she married the first guy who said 'I love you' just because she was on the age of marrying someone (she wanted to live her life and wait to the right person and the right moment), she took a job she didn't like, because all the people said it was perfect for her (she really didn't want it). After so many years living a life she didn't want to, she started to be sick of everything and everyone, 'till the point of thinking about killing herself. But then she met him. He was a british rocker she fell in love with inmediately. She went to one of his concert, and felt like she never felt before. That night was the best of her life. They really get to know each other. She really was herself, no hiding, no lies, no embarrasing, just being herself. Something was in her stomach. Her heart stopped everytime he was near. And when he touched her she felt like she was in the sky. She felt he was the one that really know her at all. And she saw it. She was living a lie. She left everything behind. Her husband, her friends, her life...She just understood it was a lie. Everything was a lie but him...someone who makes you feel that way it's just real. Real or a dream.

Wow! Lovely

2009-04-16T15:30:00.000-07:00

Cassie was my favourite character since the first episode of skins. Then effy's episode came out and well, it was a hard decision to say who I liked more!!I still can't choose (sometimes I say effy because she's still in the show, and sometimes cassie because I miss her so much). But now we are remembering her, and she had the most beautiful quotes of the series,and the most beautiful pictures, as you can see up on the head of the blog.

- I didn't eat for three days because I wanted to be lovely

- I always wished I could be a Russian Doll. A red one. With a big pair of bright blue eyes and painted on eyelashes and pink rosy cheeks. Really rosy. And my mouth would be painted on red like a bow. I'd have a flower on my chest - a rose - and two small little hands by my side. And then I could be un wrapped, two, three, four times until I was small. Really small.

- In some ways I love everything. It’s less…less of a thing than like, less distinct, less particular. I like things that I like, but I love everything. There’s more choice in like, because even the worse things have things to love in them

- Love is, like, really important. It's good to be loved. Even if it's only for one night.

- That's people, chris. They get to know you, see what the like, and leave.

- Do you know what hurts the most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before. Try to keep that feeling, because if it goes, you'll never get it back.

- More couples...more and more couples...have you ever been in love?
- I don't think so...
- Do you want me to describe it to you?
- Ok
- Do you remember when you were with me in the ambulance after I tried to kill myself?
- Of course
- That's what love feels like...

Cassie's video diary
She 'explains' Sid why she doesn't eat
When she tries to kill herself (watch it!)

You don't deserve any less

2009-04-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

tell you how much I love...your eyes, your lips, your neck, your tits...your ass

worry when you're late, and be amazed when you're early

Cherry cherry boom boom

2009-04-09T10:17:00.000-07:00

be who you want to

and guess who of those girls is me!!easy, huh?

and happy b-day to my dear leighton!(L)

Party Photos

2009-04-05T07:12:00.000-07:00

Tras tres días de fiesta continua ya el cuerpo se me acostumbra, y no me afecta la resaca. El finde que viene más y mejor!

bailamos poco ayer esta cancion

I'm saving all my secrets for a deaf man

2009-04-02T08:57:00.000-07:00

For a long time I've thinking about doing a blog, and it's finally here!Don't really know what I'm going to talk about, time will tell...but surely those things you'll see around here:

ONO

George

Gossip Girl

Skins

Effy

Coco Rocha

Edie

and more coming soon...