this was never meant to last

hey!i know i shoulnd't sent you this message, but everything is so confusing right now. i just wanted to talk to you TALK for the last time, too many things were left unsaid, the goodbye wasn't a goodbye to me, i was just so drunk i don't even remember what i said to you...the text you sent me was just hurtful...i know our thing never had a future, every moment we spent together i knew you were coming back to holland, and i was coming back to spain, but saying goodbye this way...i wanted to be mad at you, but what's the point? i will never see you again...EVER you got no idea what it was like your friends talking about you, saying how awesome you are, you are an amazing person and an amazing friend...and i was just there without saying anything because you didn't want them to know about us...saying goobye to everyone you shaked my hand, and gave me 2 kisses like you gave to everyone...am i everyone? am i another spanish girl you met and that you can't even pronounce her name? it just hurt so bad...i didn't mean you to kiss me in front of everyone but at least you could've make a difference...somehow say to me that you care, cared...


and that's the message i should send him, to let him know how i'm feeling right now, but i don't know if have the guts to do it....it's just pointless to feel this way...relationships suck, GUYS SUCK, and saying goodbye it's being harder than ever....

This is not the end, this is not the beginning, just a voice like a riot, rocking every revision but you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm though the words sound steady something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! with fists flying up in the air, like we're holding onto something that's invisible there,'Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear...
Waiting for the end to come, wishing I had strength to stand, this is not what I had planned, it's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light, thoughts were spinning in my head, SO MANY THINGS WERE LEFT UNSAID, it's hard to let you go...
oh, I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to LIE, all I wanna do is trade this life for something new, holding on to what I haven't got...
Sitting in an empty room, trying to forget the past, this was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so...
oh, I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie, all I wanna do is trade this life for something new ,holding on to what I haven't got...
What was left when that fire was gone? I thought it felt right but that right was wrong, all caught up in the eye of the storm and trying to figure out what it's like moving on and i don't even know what kind of things I've said, my mouth kept moving and my mind went dead, so, picking up the pieces, now where to begin? the hardest part of ending is starting again!!
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new, holding on to what i haven't got...
This is not the end. this is not the beginning, just a voice like a riot rocking every revision but you listen to the tone and the violet rhythm though the words sound steady something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! with fists flying up in the air, like we're holding onto something that's invisible there 'Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear...