I really need this, write something and get it out, or I will just explode. I...don't really know how to start. I liked him before I met him. My friend called me and said, "There is an english boy living with me, he is so handsome and he has an accent. You are going to love him" So I went there to meet him and there he was, perfection. The second he started talking with that sexy english accent I was just crazy. He was a bit shy, and not very talkative but the cutest thing ever. The first 2 weeks we didn't have very much relation, but the third week we started to connect. Every time we were together we talked a lot and it was so fun. And then that night. He took my hand and danced with me all night. So close. So fucking close. His lips next to mine...and he didn't kiss me. I was sad about it but I just forgot. Our friendship kept growing and growing and we had a lot of fun. We danced again. So close. Nothing. We are just friends I repeated to myself, but my heart just doesn't think the same way...After 3 weekends still nothing happened, just friends, so I assumed it and lost the hope of having something more...and then that thursday...we started drinking shots...tequila...and more shots, and now we dance, and more shots and "you are so beautiful" and finally FINALLY he kisses me...and everything is so perfect, we dance we kiss we laugh we talk, a lot, and i love that, he is the cutest thing ever, and "you are amazing my spanish girl" and we go to his place...best night ever.
The next day fairytale ends. When I see him everything normal, like the good friends we were before thursday night. But I am stupid, really stupid, and I got really drunk, REALLY DRUNK, I don't even know where I am, and I make the worst mistake ever...kissing another guy. After that nothing. 5 days of silence, when I see him again he acts normal but...he kind of avoids me. I go on a trip for the weekend so I disconnect I don't see him and I can think. The more I think the more I like him. I come back from the trip, and i see him again and everything seems cool between us he is just treating me the same way as before, we are really good friends, we connect...and then we have the conversation. As everything was going normal I really didn't want the why did you kiss another guy conversation. But we had it. And it was bad. Conclusion: he's pissed, i'm an idiot and for the moment we are just friends. OK. Week goes on and we go out together EVERYDAY and everything is so perfect we still have that connection, he's still my friend...and I...I am falling in love. Yesterday. I was having the best fun with my friends. I was so drunk. And he arrived to the party. And of course I had to talk to him. I should not have. We talk and he says I only want to be your friend, I don't want a relationship right now blah blah blah...LIAR I'M SORRY BUT YOU ARE LIAR maybe I'm just crazy, but I know he feels something for me...I'm not only one of his friends, I am different he knows "you are really into brittish, aren't you" oh god i'm stupid, i never...felt this way about anyone i think, and i'm really worried...am I in love? can you love a person you just know two months ago? what exactly is love? I have never been in love before, never had a boyfriend before, I don't know exactly what I am feeling...it's more than friendship, that's for sure, but love? what it's love?
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight high of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me she fucking hates me and I love it Wait
Where you going I'm leaving you no you ain't, Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great I'm Superman with the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful
I feel so ashamed I snap who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
DAMN YOU ENGLISH BOYS
The next day fairytale ends. When I see him everything normal, like the good friends we were before thursday night. But I am stupid, really stupid, and I got really drunk, REALLY DRUNK, I don't even know where I am, and I make the worst mistake ever...kissing another guy. After that nothing. 5 days of silence, when I see him again he acts normal but...he kind of avoids me. I go on a trip for the weekend so I disconnect I don't see him and I can think. The more I think the more I like him. I come back from the trip, and i see him again and everything seems cool between us he is just treating me the same way as before, we are really good friends, we connect...and then we have the conversation. As everything was going normal I really didn't want the why did you kiss another guy conversation. But we had it. And it was bad. Conclusion: he's pissed, i'm an idiot and for the moment we are just friends. OK. Week goes on and we go out together EVERYDAY and everything is so perfect we still have that connection, he's still my friend...and I...I am falling in love. Yesterday. I was having the best fun with my friends. I was so drunk. And he arrived to the party. And of course I had to talk to him. I should not have. We talk and he says I only want to be your friend, I don't want a relationship right now blah blah blah...LIAR I'M SORRY BUT YOU ARE LIAR maybe I'm just crazy, but I know he feels something for me...I'm not only one of his friends, I am different he knows "you are really into brittish, aren't you" oh god i'm stupid, i never...felt this way about anyone i think, and i'm really worried...am I in love? can you love a person you just know two months ago? what exactly is love? I have never been in love before, never had a boyfriend before, I don't know exactly what I am feeling...it's more than friendship, that's for sure, but love? what it's love?
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight high of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me she fucking hates me and I love it Wait
Where you going I'm leaving you no you ain't, Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great I'm Superman with the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful
I feel so ashamed I snap who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
DAMN YOU ENGLISH BOYS
Oh me ha encantado leer esta entrada. La verdad es que todo lo que te ha pasado es normal. Yo también me he líado con un chico y luego al ver que no iba a más, y perdiendo un poco la cabeza jeje he besado a otro, y luego ha venido la situación incómoda porque ninguno de los dos se atrevía a decir nada, ni ha dar un paso adelante, cuando en realidad parece que si sentís algo... esto de las relaciones es muy complicado, así que te entiendo totalmente. De todas maneras, lo más importante es que por lo que leo te lo estás pasando genial en Denmark :) espero que siga siendo así y ya me contarás qué tal va con tu english boy, sweetheart!
ResponderSuprimirun bsito grande y pásalog genial!